And indeed, I have been having A LOT of fun lately - spending more and more time with Debbie, getting to know her and the kids better, enjoying some INCREDIBLE lovemaking... this woman is truly my fantasy girl. I have gotten to do things with her that I have only ever dreamed of. And the best part is that she has loved them too. What we have is very, very special and I couldn't be any more grateful. We spent the weekend before Valentine's Day at the Majestic Mountiain Inn up in Payson, and it was an absolute fairytale weekend : room with a hot tub, dress-up romantic dinner at a wonderful restaurant (Fargo's), morning stroll at Flowing Springs - just dreamy. Oh, and how could I forget : I gave her the promise ring I bought for her, and she gave me a beautiful Fossil watch. It was just perfect.
Now that the REALLY important stuff has been written about, I will get to another situation that's been going on - job hunting. Yep - after almost 3 years at Banner, I have decided to start looking elsewhere for employment opportunities. They announced at the last division meeting that merit increased were going to be cancelled for everyone in the company for the whole year, and that didn't sit well with me. Combine that with the 'joy' of working with Rachel on the Service Manager upgrade project, and a nasty little incident a couple of weeks ago during which Aaron found it acceptable to completely ignore me, causing even more trouble than already existed, and I am ready to bail. It seems that the entire focus of this team is now on BI.. BI BI BI BI.... and I really want to be somewhere where they value their developers and treat them as such.
So I have put out my resume, and gotten a TON of emails and contacts from recruiters, companies, etc. I have been on 3 interviews so far - one horrible (5 minutes, and "see ya"), one good one (Visionary Healthcare), and one today that went very well (Black, Gould and Assoc.). The thing I am really struggling with now is patience. I want one of those 2 jobs, and I want it NNNOOOWWWW!!! Haha. Actually, what I want almost more than the job is to be able to give my 2 week notice here. I know that sounds horrible probably, and they probably aren't even going to care, but I am really looking forward to it (they being Jennifer, Al, Glenn, etc). I am just another number, another "expendable" to them. I guess it will feel good to let them know that I won't be that anymore.
The question now is, if I get offered both jobs - the one at Visionary and the one at BG, which one do I take? I think the group of people and the working environment at BG sound fantastic : small shop, nice people, casual atmosphere (jeans and tennies), great location. The career opportunities and industry growth sound awesome at Visionary, not to mention that it too has a great location, I like the CTO (Verner), and the guy I interviewed with for the tech interview on the phone (Abhijit) seemed very knowlegable, like someone I could really learn a lot from. So I'm not quite sure which I would choose. Of course, I am getting the horse ahead of the cart here (impatience! Lol) because I haven't been offered either job yet. And THAT is what is killing me!
I am not quite sure why I am so very impatient about this. I thought I had really come a long ways in developing my overall patience. But with this, I find myself checking my gmail obsessively, looking for that one email; emailing the guy at Visionary (Keith) asking him what the status is; nervously browsing the web trying to kill time, just waiting.... waiting. I am wondering what I can do to get out of this obsessive thought pattern. And what is my solution? I'm writing/reading it right now - to write about it! Yes, that is my solution at this point - to simply get it out of me and onto (virtual) paper. Perhaps that will help me to let go of it and just relax about the whole situation. It can't hurt to try. Although I have to admit that even now I am sitting here just waiting to be done with this so I can check my gmail again! Arrrggghhhhh!!! Hahaha!
One thing is certain : whatever happens will happen, and I will accept whatever it is. I need to remember that it will happen in God's time, not mine. And the more I try to force or hurry things, the slower and worse they will go. I need to just sit back, relax, let go, and find something else to occupy my mind. Of course, it might help if I had an actual project to work on at my current job - kinda' makes me wonder if they aren't suspecting that maybe I am leaving. In any case, I will find something to do with my time. Writing is a good start. Now if only I had enough money to do some REAL online shopping! Ha ha ha ha!
Now that the REALLY important stuff has been written about, I will get to another situation that's been going on - job hunting. Yep - after almost 3 years at Banner, I have decided to start looking elsewhere for employment opportunities. They announced at the last division meeting that merit increased were going to be cancelled for everyone in the company for the whole year, and that didn't sit well with me. Combine that with the 'joy' of working with Rachel on the Service Manager upgrade project, and a nasty little incident a couple of weeks ago during which Aaron found it acceptable to completely ignore me, causing even more trouble than already existed, and I am ready to bail. It seems that the entire focus of this team is now on BI.. BI BI BI BI.... and I really want to be somewhere where they value their developers and treat them as such.
So I have put out my resume, and gotten a TON of emails and contacts from recruiters, companies, etc. I have been on 3 interviews so far - one horrible (5 minutes, and "see ya"), one good one (Visionary Healthcare), and one today that went very well (Black, Gould and Assoc.). The thing I am really struggling with now is patience. I want one of those 2 jobs, and I want it NNNOOOWWWW!!! Haha. Actually, what I want almost more than the job is to be able to give my 2 week notice here. I know that sounds horrible probably, and they probably aren't even going to care, but I am really looking forward to it (they being Jennifer, Al, Glenn, etc). I am just another number, another "expendable" to them. I guess it will feel good to let them know that I won't be that anymore.
The question now is, if I get offered both jobs - the one at Visionary and the one at BG, which one do I take? I think the group of people and the working environment at BG sound fantastic : small shop, nice people, casual atmosphere (jeans and tennies), great location. The career opportunities and industry growth sound awesome at Visionary, not to mention that it too has a great location, I like the CTO (Verner), and the guy I interviewed with for the tech interview on the phone (Abhijit) seemed very knowlegable, like someone I could really learn a lot from. So I'm not quite sure which I would choose. Of course, I am getting the horse ahead of the cart here (impatience! Lol) because I haven't been offered either job yet. And THAT is what is killing me!
I am not quite sure why I am so very impatient about this. I thought I had really come a long ways in developing my overall patience. But with this, I find myself checking my gmail obsessively, looking for that one email; emailing the guy at Visionary (Keith) asking him what the status is; nervously browsing the web trying to kill time, just waiting.... waiting. I am wondering what I can do to get out of this obsessive thought pattern. And what is my solution? I'm writing/reading it right now - to write about it! Yes, that is my solution at this point - to simply get it out of me and onto (virtual) paper. Perhaps that will help me to let go of it and just relax about the whole situation. It can't hurt to try. Although I have to admit that even now I am sitting here just waiting to be done with this so I can check my gmail again! Arrrggghhhhh!!! Hahaha!
One thing is certain : whatever happens will happen, and I will accept whatever it is. I need to remember that it will happen in God's time, not mine. And the more I try to force or hurry things, the slower and worse they will go. I need to just sit back, relax, let go, and find something else to occupy my mind. Of course, it might help if I had an actual project to work on at my current job - kinda' makes me wonder if they aren't suspecting that maybe I am leaving. In any case, I will find something to do with my time. Writing is a good start. Now if only I had enough money to do some REAL online shopping! Ha ha ha ha!
