Back to normal...?

I started the "Numbsung Hero" blog up again, and must say, I am enjoying posting some funny stuff again. I have already got a couple of comments - onr from Carol (duh!) and another from some 'anonymous' reader who says there are glad I am back, that I am still funny and thanks for making them laugh. That made me feel pretty good - to know that someone is getting a laugh out of it. I have always loved making people laugh, and to think that I can do it in this venue of blogging, well, that's pretty darned cool in my opinion.

In other news, I got an email reply from Barbara in response to my lengthy apology and explanation. I thought for awhile that maybe she had blocked my email address and written me off as a stalker - seriously! But she finally wrote back and actually apologized herself for any hurt she may have caused. I thought that was nice, and wrote back and said that, if she was still up for it, I think I could be just friends with her; that I could restrain myself; and that I too was taking a break from dating for awhile. Haven't heard back from her just yet, but she mentioned in her email that she might be down in the Biltmore area Saturday to meet "the girls," and that if she was, perhaps we could meet up and exchange her book and my movie. So we'll see what happens.

I guess there really isn't much more going on than I have already covered. I am meeting with my sponsor after my AA meeting tonight to talk over some stuff, in particular this dating stuff, and other than that, have no real plans for the weekend. I guess we will just see if anything interesting comes up. You just never know what's going to happen :)

Figures!

I got a FB message from my cousin Carol yesterday asking me if I was still doing my "numbsung" blog. Apparently, a friend of hers in Guam was asking about it because he/she thought it was very funny, and wanted to read it again. Then, I got another message from her last night telling me that another friend of hers in Vegas had said the same thing - that the blog was hilarious, and that they wanted to read it again. I was a little taken aback by the complimentary nature of the emails, as well as a little mournful, because I completely dusted that blog and all the entries on it when I got really down last year. I thought that I could "bet back" at all the happy people who were reading that blog and enjoying laughing at my misfortunes by destroying it. In the end of course, I ended up hurting myself it seems, as my dream to be a published writer - or at least a popular, well-known one - went done in a rain of 0's.

Now I find myself sitting here wondering if I can resurrect that funny writer; wondering if it is something I can tap into again; wondering if, like so many of my seeming 'talents' in these areas, it was merely a fleeting glimpse. Of course now that I have some actual demand, I suppose I would be crazy to not at least give it a try. It would feel good to know that I am bringing some laughter into some people's lives. And it would be a nice place to practice my sarcasm and wit. Give the people what they want, right?

So I think I am going to see if I can bring it back from the ashes - this time, not for my glory or popularity, but for the mere joy of making others laugh. I realize now that it's not about me and my selfish desire. If I truly have a gift, then I need to give it away. And if that gift is making people laugh, I can think of none better. So now I am off to rebuild that which was torn down and resurrect he who was dead - long live the Numbsung Hero!