Things heating up

Well, it seems Deb and I have bounced back nicely from the little communication mishap the other night. And in fact, things have been heating up quite a bit lately. She has started to be much more forward about her desires, and has said outright that she can't wait to get me naked and that she wants to be with me as much as I want to be with her. Of course, this has meant that I have been harder for even longer periods of time, and have been basically living with a little bit of pre-cum in my undies constantly for a number of days now! Lol. I think I am literally going to explode the first time we get together. I have never been this worked up about a woman, and looked forward this much to being with someone.

I am only hoping that I can make it long enough to actually get to the point of being inside her. As excited and excitable as I have been, as pretty and sweet as she is, as nice a body as she has, the eagerness with which I am looking forward to seeing her naked - all these things conspire to have me cum three or four times before we ever get to that point! I guess I can hope that I am able to bring her to climax in a number of other ways - ways that I VERY much look forward to practicing on her...  I have been fantasizing about - and I think this probably sounds a little weird, in fetish kind of way - caressing and kissing the tops of her feet. That, and going down on her like nobody's business!

We are supposed to be having an actual evening date, with no set time to have to be back to any kids or anything, this Saturday night. I am thinking chances are pretty high that we will get to act out some of these fantasies then. I am sure hoping so anyway. Otherwise, I think there is a serious risk of me actually DYING from blue balls! I know that Sunday, my nads hurt SO bad after we parted, for about 3 hours after. I was worried I might actually have to go to the doctor! We had gotten quite passionate in her car before we parted, and I felt the results of it.

On another subject entirely, I met with John and Ben last night for our annual "KBJ holiday dinner." We ate at Sauce and had a great time talking and catching up. I am blessed to have had such cool classmates and grateful that we have maintained our friendships long after school was over. Seems like they are both doing well too - especially John, as he bought a house in San Antonio and is really happy. Ben is still living with his parents. He bought a house, but is working on fixing it up I guess. He's a nice kid, definitely a unique person.

Life is good right now, it really is. I am just trying to take it as it comes, keep my meditation up, and be the best me I can be. So far, that seems to be working pretty well : )

First "real" date

I read my title from my last post and it made me laugh. I am definitely still digging Pattie, and in fact, moreso every day. She is a total sweetheart, and very flirtatious/romantic, which I am a TOTAL sucker for, being the romantic that I am. I was thinking to myself this morning that as much as I have promised myself I wouldn't, and as badly as it has turned out in the past, I feel that I am really wanting to jump head first into something serious with this girl. In fact, I was thinking of basically telling her that tonight.

That is, of course, if I can bring myself to break my own rules, and go against everything I have driving into my own head for the last year or 2! Ha ha! It's just that I was thinking this morning, and I was going through the different "categories" I have for a match - mental, physical, spiritual, and the ineffable ones (like the ones I listed aren't, right?) like how much she makes me laugh, what kind of personality she has, how romantic she is - and it seems that she scores very well in all of the categories I have. Of course, I have been wondering if I will be as attracted to her physically when I see her tonight, as it was a little hard to get a good read on her bod the last time we met. Although, as I said before, she definitely has some nice breasts workin', no real facial hair, no noticeable double chin, and definitely no cankles! LMAO! Oh gosh, that sounds horrible, doesn't it? Like I am shallow or something. I tend to just think of it as preferences though - what I like/don't care for in a romantic partner.

So, given the great hooters (wow, classy! Did I just write that??? Lol), the hairless face, the nice nails, and the AWESOME personality, I guess it doesn't really matter much just how she looks in the middle, ya' know? She did say that her mom and sister have struggled with their weights, and that she has taken precautions to make sure she doesn't fall into that category. So I know she is conscious about, and takes an active interest in maintaining her weight, so.....

Anyway, we met at Jamba Juice last weekend, and tonight is our first "real" date. It was actually set up for tomorrow night, but SHE texted yesterday, and asked me if I wanted to try to make it for Thursday (today) instead. Now how could I not like that? A woman who is actually as anxious as I am to see each other again! Awesome. And we have been having a blast kidding back and forth through texts and emails about everything from her getting out of the shower, and the naughty thoughts it gives me, to whether or not her friend Cheryl will approve of me, and what we are doing for our date. It has been, like I always thought - and hoped - it would be - romantic, flirty, and whole lot of fun! : )

I guess tonight will be somewhat of a "defining moment" in our very young relationship - it should probably serve to more clearly expose our feelings for each other and whether or not we want to pursue something more serious. I have a feeling about this woman, I really do. But I am trying to maintain my perspective and not get too excited or worked up. I want to just take it easy and see where it goes. Ok - that's not true : what I REALLY want to do is take her in my arms, say that I think I am falling in love with her, sweep her off her feet, and live happily ever after. BUT, seeing as how I have some unrealistic, codependent and idealistic tendencies, I am opting for the 'relax and see how it goes' approach instead! Lol! More tomorrow.....